Updated: Jun 19, 2019
I know that in starting this new chapter in life and business, not everyone knows who I am, where I came from or what I'm all about. And as the owner of a Design /Staging and Organization business... I thought the following piece that I wrote a couple years ago after losing our 16 year old son in a motorcycle accident, might give just a little glimpse into who I am and one of the reasons I got into this business.~
How often do we run through life when a situation arises, and our automatic response is "I got this?" So many times you find that we just don't want to put others out, or burden our friends and family, so we find ourselves responding with "I got this!" The reality of it all, is that we can’t get along on our own; we need that help not just from those around us, but from our Heavenly Father... and, we definitely "don't got it" without Him, or those that he places along our path to offer a helping hand, an ear to listen, shoulder to cry on or just someone there for comfort! It’s been awhile since I shared our road or path of losing Hunter, so today I will open up just a little window again because I realize many days we "don't got this". For example: when I'm about to have a breakdown, overwhelmed with the loss, I find myself busying my mind by the need to organize and clean my house to the point that I'm selling items to replace items just for that sense of "I've accomplished something". When I sit here and I think about how I process and deal with the loss of Hunter, it's quite silly and frankly I hate having to clean more than I need to clean but for some odd reason that's how I deal with it. If you were to drop by randomly you may find me bawling my eyes out and scrubbing my bathroom floor. As you can imagine I don't always "got this" and obviously I need help!
My daughter Taylor, and my husband Scott both process our loss and other issues in different ways as well. And at times, probably more times than we like to admit, we all find ourselves building up with anger or feeling like we woke up on the wrong side of the bed, where even the littlest things could set us off at anytime like a bomb. Now the obvious thing to do would be to ask for help, ask for prayer, ask for God to soften our hearts and to comfort us.... BUT, we run around thinking "we got this"!
I'm guessing that no one knows when our days are a struggle. How can they know what’s going on if we don't ask for help. And in the same way, If we call out to our Father and we are struggling to make it, and He sends someone knocking but we don't answer... it's basically the same as if we ignored Him. He wants us to feel his peace and comfort, He doesn't want us to battle alone.
I use myself and my family as an example but this is something we all do. We go through life with the "I got this" attitude ignoring Gods blessings and those who come along with their hands and arms opened out to you. All we need to do is accept the gift of his comfort. He knows our pain, our weaknesses, our daily struggles. He just wants us to hand it over to him he will bless and comfort you if we have faith and know that without him we "don't got this" But with him and those he places along our path WE can do this, WE can make it, WE can find the light at the end of the tunnel... if you know what I mean.
I am God's instrument, I love helping people... I know I am placed along someone's path yesterday, today and tomorrow. Whether we have a working relationship, just getting to know each other, or we are as close as family. Sometimes we need that little extra help organizing ourselves… should you need comfort, prayers or just to hear "I love you" to get you to the next step in this life, I am here!!